Thursday, March 23, 2017

Fully equipped

I cried out to God, “What is the point of my life?”

God answered me with an opportunity, and I said, “No, I can’t do that. Show me the real point of my life now that I’m a widow.”

God again showed me the same opportunity, and I again said, “No way, I get too nervous. No way. You're not listening to me, Lord. Show me something I can do for you so that my life has meaning.”

For months, God and I had this battle. No, I battled and God was patient with me; but I still kept asking God to show me what He wanted me to do—and always I was waiting for God to provide the answer I wanted to hear.

Then God sent me another opportunity, and I laughed, because it was the same opportunity with a slightly different twist. Still I didn’t say yes, instead I hesitated and stewed about it all. I even came up with some interesting reasons why I simply couldn’t do this for the Lord.

I prayed. I researched. I prayed. I found what I needed to accomplish this task. I continued to hesitate. I prayed, and I went to bed hesitating about it all. I awoke this morning and told God, “I’m not sure I can do this, but if You’ll give me the strength, I'll do it.”

Then God showed me something in His Word.

2 Corinthians 9:8 (NASB)—“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed…”

It was then that I realized God has already equipped me fully to do this for Him, but I had simply failed to trust Him to do as He promised. With absolute peace in my heart, I’m moving forward with this opportunity, and I’ll be totally trusting God daily for all the strength I need to accomplish this task.


1 Peter 5:7: “casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.”